once when i was little, i claimed it was a teacher’s work day so i wouldn’t have to go to school and mom’s not an idiot so of course it didn’t work, but when we got to the school, we found it was a teacher’s work day and that made me think i had super powers so i started trying to kill classmates with my mind to confirm the theory
You thought you had super powers so you immediately attempted to murder everyone
“Ancient moon priestesses were called virgins. ‘Virgin’ meant not married, not belonging to a man - a woman who was ‘one-in-herself’. The very word derives from a Latin root meaning strength, force, skill; and was later applied to men: virle. Ishtar, Diana, Astarte, Isis were all all called virgin, which did not refer to sexual chastity, but sexual independence. And all great culture heroes of the past, mythic or historic, were said to be born of virgin mothers: Marduk, Gilgamesh, Buddha, Osiris, Dionysus, Genghis Khan, Jesus - they were all affirmed as sons of the Great Mother, of the Original One, their worldly power deriving from her. When the Hebrews used the word, and in the original Aramaic, it meant ‘maiden’ or ‘young woman’, with no connotations to sexual chastity. But later Christian translators could not conceive of the ‘Virgin Mary’ as a woman of independent sexuality, needless to say; they distorted the meaning into sexually pure, chaste, never touched.”—Monica Sjoo, The Great Cosmic Mother: Rediscovering the Religion of the Earth (via ynannarising)
In TEH, when Sherlock says that oh so subtextual line "Because you chose her" I think almost everyone though the "and not me" that probably followed in Sherlock's mind, we all though this not just because of what was going on and what we know about their relationship and the fact that in TSoT they practically make Sherlock's love for John canon but also for Sherlock's face when he says it. Am I the only one who saw John flinch?The only one who thinks John realised everything at that very moment?
SHERLOCK: John, you are addicted to a certain lifestyle. You’re abnormally attracted to dangerous situations and people…so is it truly such a surprise that the woman you’ve fallen in love with conforms to that pattern?
JOHN: But she wasn’t supposed to be like that. Why is she like that?
SHERLOCK: Because you chose her.
JOHN: Why is everything always my fault?
If you want my two cents on this scene, here it is…
It’s him I worry about most…that wife. You’re letting him down, Sherlock. John Watson is definitely in danger.
Sherlock fought for life not just out of love for John, but to save him. He believed John was in danger, and clearly Mary was the reason. We are not privy to Sherlock’s thought process as he flees the hospital, contacts John, and sets up the “trap” for Mary in the empty house. But my opinion is that the first and most vital step for him was to convince Mary he is on her side, he is not an opponent. He needs time to figure out who she is and what this means for John’s safety. As far as John goes, Sherlock doesn’t want to lie to him – he’s not going to keep the fact that Mary shot him a secret. But, for John’s safety, he does have to convince him (John) that he (Sherlock) is on Mary’s side. Because then John will be on Mary’s side, and Sherlock needs Mary to think she’s in control.
The beautiful and heartbreaking thing about this bit of dialogue is that Sherlock is doing exactly that – gently placing the blame on John for having chosen Mary, thereby allowing Mary to think she has the upper hand. But at the same time, Sherlock is taking the opportunity to subtly point out something else.
You’re attracted to dangerous situations and PEOPLE. Plural. Yes, this doesn’t *have* to mean romantic attraction, but we are talking about his wife here. The “romantic” is implied.
Because you chose her. Yes, Sherlock could be pulling a double meaning with this sentence. As far as his plan goes, he’s shifting the blame from Mary to John (which pains him, because he doesn’t actually blame John – just look at the expression on his face). And if you change the emphasis from “chose” to “her” – because you chose her – then there’s another meaning there as well.
John is clearly tightly wound in this scene. Let’s reassess what the past day or two have been like. After not having seen Sherlock for a month (and not handling it well), John learns Sherlock is dating a woman. Then he sees Sherlock get engaged. Then he realizes the whole thing was a sham, giving John license to delete all the wonderful things Sherlock said and did that proved he loved him in TSoT and revert back to his old ways of thinking that Sherlock is a sociopath incapable of actual love. Literally moments after John has this (false) revelation, Sherlock is shot in the chest. By John’s wife. Sherlock comes back from the brink of death. He breaks out of the hospital, sets John up in disguise in an empty house, and John watches his wife threaten his already extremely injured best friend before shooting a coin out of the air.
John’s life is incredibly fucked up right now.
He’s angry in this scene. Not just at Mary, but at the world. We can’t blame him. And even as he snipes at Sherlock to shut up, he listens to every word Sherlock has to say. And look at his face as he does. He absorbs it, every word. He hears it. You’re attracted to dangerous people. And what’s more, he agrees with Sherlock.
But she wasn’t supposed to be like that. Why is she like that?
She wasn’t supposed to be like that. So yes, you’re right, there were others I was attracted to. (Again, I understand that “attracted to dangerous people” doesn’t have to have a romantic meaning. But considering this conversation revolves around John’s wife, I think it’s debatable that that is the case here.)
We, as viewers, saw how Sherlock fought off death, all for John. But John did not see this. All he knows is that sociopath-Sherlock dated a woman and proposed to her all to break into an office like the unfeeling a-hole he is, and then he got shot. And now John’s life has been turned upside down with this revelation about Mary, and he’s looking into Sherlock’s eyes and everything is written there all over again. All the pain he saw on Sherlock’s face at the end of TSoT. So wait – which is the real Sherlock? This one, with all the ~feels~ that John paradoxically wants Sherlock to have, and yet can’t stand to face? Or the cold-hearted detective who has no problem breaking someone’s heart just to get a step further in a case?
Look at their faces again. And remember the paradox. John wants emotional Sherlock, the one we know to be the real Sherlock. But just like at the end of TSoT, he’s terrified to face the real Sherlock, the one whose shields are down, who doesn’t care if John knows he loves him.
He does the same thing. He looks away.
But yes, he sees it.
He just can’t deal with it right now. His wife, his lying wife, the woman who is carrying his child and has lied to him since the day he met her – he has to deal with her right now. Isn’t that enough? Can anyone expect John to handle anything else at the moment?
Sherlock doesn’t. He guides John back to Mary, acts as the facilitator, sets his own plan (whatever that may be) in motion. So once again, John turns away from what he saw on Sherlock’s face. Repression, John Watson style. And even though he’s still angry at the world, John still places his trust completely in Sherlock.
Always your way.
I’m certainly not the first to point this out, but if your heart is still whole at this point, Sherlock’s reaction to that line will shatter it into a million pieces. Because this is so not Sherlock’s way. This isn’t how he wants it, not at all. But it’s what must be done at this point, because John Watson is definitely in danger, and right now, that’s all that matters.
Why do you think Sherlock was 'road-testing' (practising) dancing to the piece he composed for John and Mary, considering they were the only ones going to dance to it? It was the morning of the wedding, presumably he'd already taught John by this point. Do you think he was imagining dancing with John? Do you think he hoped he would dance with John at some point that night?
My first thought when I saw that scene was that he was practicing dancing to it just to make sure it was…well, a “danceable” composition, if that makes sense. Checking the tempo, feel, rhythm, etc. This is his gift to John and Mary and, just like his speech, he’s terrified of screwing it up.
As to your other questions…ugh. UGH. That whole “I taught him conversation” at the end of TSoT conversation just wrecks me. I mean, this has just happened:
Sherlock’s true feelings are briefly written all over his face, and John absolutely cannot deal. He looks down, has a second of wait, what? glances back up to confirm he’s seeing what he thinks he’s seeing, and yeah. He can’t look. He can’t face those feelings.
Sherlock sees that, and he gives John an out. He tells them to go dance. Mary (very considerately) asks “what about you?”, they joke about there being “limits,” and then the tutoring conversation happens.
Here’s how I read it (lining up the dialogue with the gifs):
SHERLOCK: “Don’t worry Mary, I have been tutoring him.”
JOHN: “He did you know…”
JOHN: “Baker Street behind closed curtains.”
I put a delay on the last frame. It lines up with John’s “closed curtains” comment. See how Sherlock’s kind of trying to laugh along until John makes that joke? He glances at John with a confused, almost hurt expression here.
John, meanwhile, has gone into full-on bro mode. It’s his way of utterly denying what he’s just read on Sherlock’s face. His shield is fucking UP. I love John Watson dearly, but I have a hard time watching him here, because he’s truly being a dickhead.
JOHN: “Mrs. Hudson came in one time.”
JOHN: “Don’t know how those rumors got started.”
A careless glance at Sherlock, a dismissive joke about their dance lessons and years of rumors about their relationship, a flippant laugh (seriously, listen to the way he laughs there, it’s SO not his normal laugh)
brush it off, never meant a thing, face the wife, face AWAY from Sherlock, don’t look back don’t look back don’t look back
He gets super affectionate with Mary. And yes, I know, it’s their wedding, they’re dancing, they’ve just learned she’s pregnant. But we’ve seen John act affectionate with Mary and this is different. John might as well have NO HOMO stamped on his forehead here.
He. Can’t. Deal.
And Sherlock knows it.
Did he imagine, after their lessons, maybe getting the chance to dance with John at the reception?
And after all, John had danced with him before during their lessons. Maybe Sherlock thought John was comfortable with it – comfortable enough with his own sexuality, whatever he considers that to be – to dance with his friend at his wedding reception, his best friend, his best man. It doesn’t mean anything unless it means something.
But no, that was “behind closed doors.” Can’t let anyone see that, nope. That’s how those rumors got started. Those silly, meaningless rumors that meant absolutely nothing, just everyone in the world reading too much into this totally platonic friendship, right mate?
Maybe they could’ve danced in front of everyone, because it wouldn’t mean anything. Except John read the real meaning on Sherlock’s face, and nope, not gonna happen now, can’t face that, can’t deal, shields up.
Because it would have meant something to Sherlock. Just like it did “behind closed doors.” It means everything. And he doesn’t care who knows, not anymore.
But John cares. Right, Sherlock? John cares who knows. He cares what people think. It really bothers you. What? What people say.
It still bothers John. He can’t deal with Sherlock’s feelings, and he can’t deal with his own. John’s shield is up and who knows if he’ll ever lower it again. And Sherlock accepts that, and he respects it, and he does the only thing he can do now.
Well. I didn’t mean for this meta to happen. Time to go cry into my soup.
“Moments later [Ellen DeGeneres] is onstage handing out pizza- much to the dismay of Benedict Cumberbatch, who is backstage about to present an award. "Damn, I missed the pizza," he says to Jennifer Garner.”—USA Today- 3/3/14 (via tilthenexttime)
Ellen Degeneres is the greatest because she doesn’t insult anyone but she doesn’t tiptoe around anything either and she includes everyone and she makes people feel good about themselves while poking fun at them and this is the kind of comedy that should be embraced at award shows not misogynistic songs about breasts
like sitting watching a movie and he just kinds of drags his fingers over your skin while watching and he doesn’t have a motive he’s not trying to tickle you or be sexual with you he’s just touching your skin and feeling the shape of your bones under that skin like it’s physically comforting for him to know that you’re there right under his fingertips